Good morning, friends! I hope you are all doing well! I am definitely doing better than I had these past few months.
It has certainly been a long time since I last posted on both my YouTube and my blog. I took an unannounced hiatus from both platforms, as loss of motivation, mental health, and focusing on my new job made it difficult for me to figure out ideas on what to post, or to even write or film something. I am kind of over apologising for taking breaks, however, I wish I made it more known that I took that hiatus.
I do hope I will be posting more often, both on my blog and YouTube in the coming months. Next month is my birthday month so I might do something special then, though I am not sure what. Maybe a video Q&A or something, if anyone cares to ask me questions. Let me know if that’s something you’d like to see, or if there is anything you’d like to see in the future.
Let us get into some updates!
My Career Path & Mental Health
Ever since I was hospitalised and quit my job with the government, I have been in a kind of state of limbo. Obviously, there was the getting better part, which was hard in itself. But this feeling of career limbo stuck around as I applied for job after job and went to interview after interview. I then ultimately made a decision.
As I really enjoyed my time learning to be a library technician and getting my diploma for that field, I felt as if it was not calling to me as a potential career anymore. Maybe I will pursue something along those lines in the future, but for now, I felt it wasn’t something I could feasibly do at this time.
This decision didn’t necessarily backfire on me, but it made me face the unknown and anxiety that had been bubbling up to the surface. I was so worried. I felt stuck in this unknown and wondered if I would ever find something I was meant to do.
I do now have a job, that I started in June, but it’s not something I want to do forever. It’s a retail job, in an Italian grocery/take-out. We make a lot of our dishes from scratch, including the pasta. I really like the job, it is just the right amount of busy for me. My coworkers are really nice too, as well as the management. I ultimately want to use this as a way to heighten my customer service skills, get more experience in a professional environment, and use my paycheques for day-to-day expenses, as well as to save money.
Back to School?
I am definitely saving money for the “just in case” reasoning, but I also want to save more money for going back to school in Fall 2019. This time, I plan on going to University and majoring in English.
It is something I am really passionate about; reading and writing are some things that obviously enjoy and it seems like the perfect fit for me. I plan on going to an Open House for the program this Saturday. Fingers crossed this is everything I hope it will be!
I was in sort of a slumpy reading state this year. At some points, I did not feel like picking up a book and by May I had only read eight books, and I have currently, as of October 23rd, only read 21 books. I was so motivated to read this year, as you may remember from my huge goal of making my To Be Read pile zero by 2020. As it gets closer and closer to 2019, I feel like I am going to fail this goal completely. I have a considerably large TBR and I don’t even know how big my TBR is now. However, I am not giving up. Just because I was slumpy this year, doesn’t mean I will be slumpy next year.
I think I’m *officially* absolutely going on a book buying ban until at least after Christmas, maybe longer. If I get gift cards or something for my birthday though… those purchases don’t count. It is only if I spend my own money on books. I think would like to finish at least 45 books before I start buying again. Or more.
Channel & Blog
I’m not sure if my hiatus is officially over quite yet. I do plan on making another collective book haul video at some point. Also, an unhaul video, as I unhauled some books from my collection a couple months ago and they are still sitting in my basement.
I also plan on making more book reviews on this blog when I finish books, and writing discussion posts on various topics like I have done in the past.
So, nothing too radically different from my usual past content.
I hope you enjoyed this post updating you on what I have been doing and plan on doing. I do hope to post more frequently in the future on all my platforms, and possibly on my new book-stagram account that I have neglected for so long.